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“How often he’s tried to touch death”

 

How often he’s tried to touch death

Caress the cheeks    make them familiar

Wipe away flecks of blood

Or crumbs off death’s chin

Perhaps he should shave death’s face

Use lipstick and ear rings   make the gender a man

One that prefers intimacy with other men

Not raw sexuality    just one whose cheek is pressed

Against his   without words    without intent

And hear the faint whistle escape death’s lungs

So like

A faraway tunnel    a faraway sluicing through branches

A nearby slumbering animal    or his own nostrils

Followed by that silence

So like

The final tears of a mother over her stillborn infant

Whose crumpled little face grows dim

Whose face is the receding sunlight on a river

Filled with song    inescapable as breath

 

“I’m broken, crushed, destroyed”

 

All three words

Exit the same way through these trees

Hollered up from my lungs through the leaves

Deep in these nameless woods

A place which is the perfect emblem for

“The silent terraces of the heart”

And other terms we no longer use

Out of distrust

 

On the surface the three words seem the same

But I’d rather gather up “crushed”

The smell of crushed leaves and petals

Crushed ice on a hot day poured in lemon juice

Waves crushing the sand as lovers’ wet bodies cling

 

Oh yes, let this be my prayer

Give me huge jars of the word crushed

 

“Meditation is truest in the pre-dawn”

 

Meditation is truest in the pre-dawn

The moon slides down Jacob’s ladder

The stars no longer whisper

 

Like bits of shimmering porcelain

They put away their playthings   crickets

Leaves softening a pond   the glint of a distant car

 

The child in me floats down from the sky

Cleansed by ash    lightening my bones

Glad at last to be taken seriously

Ready to cherish today’s half-truths

 

 

 

Yielding  (First published in my memoir Cracking China)

 

When my body brought me news of its coming death,

I thought of the snow that once burst

Silently against our bedroom window.

 

When my fingers brought me news of their coming death,

I held again my mother’s hands,

Learning, this time, to let them go.

 

My wife’s body

Has also brought us news of death.

It was not the cough, the fever, that racked her so,

Racked me so,

But the first serrations of cherry blossom

As they chiseled through the bark.

 

 

Author

  • CRACKING CHINA was previously the title of this blog. That title was used as the name for Rod MacKenzie's second book, Cracking China: a memoir of our first three years in China. From a review in the Johannesburg Star: " Mackenzie's writing is shot through with humour and there are many laugh-out-loud scenes". Cracking China is available as an eBook on Amazon Kindle or get a hard copy from www.knowledgethirstmedia.co.za. His previous book is a collection of poetry,Gathering Light. A born and bred South African, Rod now lives in Auckland, New Zealand, after a number of years working in southern mainland China and a stint in England. Under the editorship of David Bullard and Michael Trapido he had a column called "The Mocking Truth" on NewsTime until the newszine folded. He has a Master's Degree in Creative Writing from the University of Auckland. if you are a big, BIG publisher you should ask to see one of his many manuscript novels. Follow Rod on Twitter @ https://twitter.com/Rod_in_China

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CRACKING CHINA was previously the title of this blog. That title was used as the name for Rod MacKenzie's second book, Cracking China: a memoir of our first three years in China. From a review in the Johannesburg...

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